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I Am Not Okay

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I Am Not Okay

Sobriety is not what I thought it would be. I’ve an abundance of experience in not drinking, I’ve done it quite a few times. Consider me an expert. I know exactly what to expect. Loneliness. Fear. Escapism. I play the warden of my incarceration, solitarily confined to my own head, both victim and inmate. Just don’t drink. Oh how easy that sounds. Skin crawls, sleeping in 30-minute increments, irritable of everything and nothing. But it will pass. This I know. I know this too well. What I don’t know, what I’ve always failed at, is how to stay...

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You Have to Love Yourself First

Posted by on 9:23 am in Dating & Relationships, The Good Stuff | 2 comments

You Have to Love Yourself First

“You have to love yourself first,” they said. They, the countless people who have made this suggestion throughout my years, never brought with them a pamphlet on where to start. There was no gameplan, no rulebook, or instruction manual. As great as it sounds, I didn’t know how. What clicked for me was looking at the statement from a different perspective. Love is good, love wins everything. But in order to love myself, I had to start by liking me. If I knew one truth, I knew I didn’t like me. If I knew a second truth, I knew I didn’t want...

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My Secret Sobriety

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My Secret Sobriety

My very first drink was at the age of 13, a summer night before entering high school. A dozen of us met at the rope swing that hovered over the river; the outskirts of a small town surrounded by farmland. We weren’t addicts or alcoholics, we were curious in nature. The beer commercials promised an attractive design for life, alongside bikinis and freedom. Having already lied to my friends I’ve drank beer before, the can I cracked open was truly my first. As I reflect on that night, I can feel the draw of the rope swing dangling nearby, ever...

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Please Allow Me To Introduce Myself

Posted by on 11:48 am in The Good Stuff | 2 comments

Please Allow Me To Introduce Myself

We recently had a spike in followers on the FTD page, gaining about 1,000 per day over the last week and a half. I wanted to make sure you understood exactly what you were following, and sharing about who I was and who I am today. Sorry for any grammatical errors, I’m writing this on a whim. Hi. My name is Jon and three years ago I decided to start a blog called Full-Time Daddy – mainly because I already owned the fulltimedaddy.com domain and I’m a cheapskate – but primarily to share my personal experiences as a single dad....

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Leggo My Ego

Posted by on 2:24 pm in Dating & Relationships, The Good Stuff | 1 comment

Leggo My Ego

I’m learning more about myself than when the distraction of another relationship is present. As far as dating goes, history proves I’m not very good at it. The desire for a relationship is stronger than having the patience necessary to find the right person. So, as a result, I jump from relationship to relationship, with an average length of about a year. I’m growing weary of this pattern, becoming hardened within, and it’s beginning to feel like I’ll be the 40something single guy that dates 23 year olds who doesn’t give a shit except for...

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This Makes Me A Little Nervous

Posted by on 2:52 pm in The Good Stuff | 2 comments

This Makes Me A Little Nervous

Last night I got home and was completely exhausted, wanting to X myself across my new queen bed while my singleness remains for an unknown period of time. It’s a bittersweet feeling but you know exactly what I’m talking about. Standard protocol upon arrival is to leave a trail of clothing, front door to bedroom. It begins by the loosening my belt, unbuckling my pants, and letting gravity take over while I pull my shirt off. While my pants start to bunch up at the bottom, I can use one foot to slide my heel out of my shoe while pinching my...

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48 Hours of Online Dating

Posted by on 2:28 pm in Dating & Relationships, The Good Stuff | 4 comments

48 Hours of Online Dating

I signed up for online dating again after a two-year hiatus and roughly 48 hours later, I was pressing cancel and delete before my thumbs caught an STD. The amount of boobs displayed would put a Ron Jeremy video to shame. It’s not for me. The flipside is I’ve heard success stories of wonderful connections, flights that would have otherwise been missed if it wasn’t for online dating. My problem is an unwillingness to sift through the baggage of lost luggage, and if I do find one I could meet for coffee, the Louis Vitton ends up being a fanny...

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A Good Mom Doesn’t Give Up

Posted by on 9:10 am in The Good Stuff | 4 comments

A Good Mom Doesn’t Give Up

I was in family law court years ago for a custody issue, waiting quietly behind two parents that were on stage and on display. The dad sat next to an attorney that looked like he haphazardly threw his suit on, while having one of those mornings when you get lucky with the bedhead. The attorney was obviously disorganized, searching through an open file while the proceedings are taking place. I’ve seen this situation before. Dad did something, usually related to drugs, mental health, violence or alcohol, lawyered up, and mom represents herself...

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So This Happened…

Posted by on 12:03 pm in Genesis News & Updates, The Good Stuff | 2 comments

So This Happened…

At bedtime, Tuesday night, I could have sworn I shut my ringer off before sinking my head into a pillow but by 5am Wednesday morning, I was alerted to my forgetfulness with beeps. The number wasn’t associated to a contact and I wasn’t sure what area code this was from. It’s not out of the ordinary to receive early morning calls because I speak with lots of family law attorneys on the East Coast, three hours ahead. I sent the call to voicemail and waited for the message notification. Nothing. Pushing myself out of bed, I went to brew a dark...

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I Hope You’re Happy!

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I Hope You’re Happy!

Every October 20th for the past six years has been a somber day for me. The seasonal changes remind me of how I felt back then; the chillier mornings, the wet grounds, the scattered leaves, and the increase of wind activity, it all reflects on a time of feeling empty and hopeless. My life had a dramatic turn in a new direction this day, where my daily activities as a dad would be stripped because of my own choices. I had lost custody of my daughter, all by myself. It was earlier that year, around the end of March, when I decided to get sober....

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