A Good Mom Doesn’t Give Up
May08

A Good Mom Doesn’t Give Up

I was in family law court years ago for a custody issue, waiting quietly behind two parents that were on stage and on display. The dad sat next to an attorney that looked like he haphazardly threw his suit on, while having one of those mornings when you get lucky with the bedhead. The attorney was obviously disorganized, searching through an open file while the proceedings are taking place. I’ve seen this situation before. Dad did...

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I Hope You’re Happy!
Oct20

I Hope You’re Happy!

Every October 20th for the past six years has been a somber day for me. The seasonal changes remind me of how I felt back then; the chillier mornings, the wet grounds, the scattered leaves, and the increase of wind activity, it all reflects on a time of feeling empty and hopeless. My life had a dramatic turn in a new direction this day, where my daily activities as a dad would be stripped because of my own choices. I had lost custody...

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A Moment of Time
Oct26

A Moment of Time

Shock and surprise, in the blink of an eye. I’m still a kid myself! This twenty year old guy. Being a father to another human being, living a simple life of wiping and cleaning. Every other weekend she’d spend with her mom. I was a full-time dad, a damn lucky one. Definitely scared, not sure what to do. I got the hang of it as day one turned to day two. Friends are going out to celebrate a birth. I’m staying in tonight to change more...

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Happy Thanksforgiving
Nov27

Happy Thanksforgiving

I woke up in yesterday’s clothes.  I pulled my phone from its charger – it’s midnight, creeping into morning.  I’m not surprised; I’ve been here before.  I notice the kitchen light was left on again.  Lazy.  I stare at the ceiling, kicking off my shoes; I take my socks off which makes my feet tingle from being on too long.  My chest is heavy and I’m breathing minimally.  I remind myself to take a deep breath.  It doesn’t help and I...

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Confidence That Bleeds
Sep04

Confidence That Bleeds

Aunt Flow.  Crimson Tide.  Red Sea.  The Rag.  TOM (time of the month) You can give it any name you want; there are plenty of them.  It’s inevitable.  It’s going to happen.  You might not want to think about it but it doesn’t make it go away.  You can prepare all you want but you’ll never know when or where this event will take place.  If you have a daughter, she is going to start menstruating one day; the inaugural event I’ve...

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